heyya~!
haha why does God always immediately throw a bulldozer in ya face everytime you've just been hit by a shovel? mann.. my life is really unpredictable.. and in a way its beginning to suck.. too many things happening much too fast!
im still not sure wats going on but i was selected to go for the second phase of the scout course and ive jus been told that they want me to report on monday.. i thought i'd get by the system since i was attached out but apparently they tracked me down.. for those who know, i went for the first phase earlier this year, and though it was a good experience its one i really don wanna relive haha..
the last time i had everything going for it, i wanted the coveted jungle hat to prove myself! but now i've jus simply too much to lose if i go and i don wanna lose any of it.. like now, when i should be outside for someone else im freakin stuck in camp! sigh.. i so much wanted to fail my medical this time (unlike the last) but there was simply nothing wrong with me! yeah i was tempted to fake it, i could have, but should i really? i dunno, is pride and integrity actually worth anything? does anyone actually give a damn? i mean theres a really thin line between being a hero and a fool.. who respects a fool?
if i go, i have a meagre day to prepare everything because i can only be released on saturday afternoon, i have to report on monday morning.. man.. i dun wanna go.. but if i have to i guess ive jus gotta.. stupid army eh! hehheh..