hello world! it's me again! haha.. been sooo busy but theres only 2 wks left of my course! yay!!! its been fun this time unlike the last time when i was confined for 4 out of the 6wks duration of the course.. we getta row dinghy boats along rivers, mount helicopters, and use cool gadgets i thought only existed in movies.. furthermore the instructors are really very nice, they treat us so well with ' please take a seat', 'sorry for the inconvenience' and 'enjoy ya meals' every so often.. the 'service is quite gd eh i must say haha.. maybe its the change of status now la.. but anyhow will be going for hell week next week! 10 days of solid outfield! haiz.. but its been a good experience and i think its made me a stronger person mentally and physically.. i almost feel as if i can take on anything now! haha.. well almost.. cuz they say that i'l have to do my combat survival training maybe sometime during reservist ( CST is where the trainers treat ya worst than dirt and let out leashed dogs to chase ya to simulate POW treatment).. haha sure hope i don have to come again *nervous laugh* i think this course has somehow been therepeutic in a way and has nursed my bruised spirit :) im kinda a sadomasachist eh..
i feel so forgotten by the world!!! haha.. no thanks, no recognition, no praise, no encouragement.. even when i had gone out of my way to try to make people smile and be happy.. everybody jus seems to forget that i exist.. for examaple that jerk of an encik actually had the nerve to ask me why i went for the scout course instead of comin back to help him when i paid him a visit the other day, and he wants me to work harder when i get back.. wake up man! as if i didnt wanna go back!.. sheesh neways he's not the only one who's got me peeved so i shouldnt be so harsh on him.. it's as if i didnt matter any more, sometimes i so feel like giving up and don even bother.. but i wasnt built this way so i cant do it.. i keep believin in the goodness in people haiz.. am i too nice for my own good? am i being stupid?
this sucks! com'on im not usually lidat.. i like being happy remember? where's the old matthew loong? haiz.. ignore me im jus being a pain in the ass cuz this makes me feel a lil better haha.. i pray things get better.. i mean afterall, ya cant get any lower if ya in the pits haha..
ORD loh!
stone :: 11:02 AM
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004
my my! look at the amount of dust on my blog! 'koff koff!' haha.. sorry la, been super busy lately so neber blog..
ok so here's an update on ya ol' man a.k.a yours truly, jus to make sure he's still alive and kickin.. well, its been a shiong three weeks in reece course 2.. and i have a 10 day field camp in two weeks time!!! there were fun times nonetheless, for example i trekked 30km from ntu up north to sarimbun scout camp, passing thru lim chu kang cemetary for my navigational exercise and my team came in fifth! 2h under time! yay! the ppl in the public were so nice to us.. met an old lady who wanted to give us a lift in her van, and an old man who was a former scout in the 1980s who showed us a shortcut out of the chicken farm (yes i was at the chicken farm too). but all in all i juz wanna get the next four wks quickly over and done with so that finally i can go back to my kingly life on tekong where i was born to be haha..