i'm so bored
sigh

was nose deep in work only jus two weeks back, along with mugging for four midterms. now that i've sorta caught up with my assignments, which i was really hoping to do, i should be feeling accomplished. but i feel so empty, dunno why, nothing to look forward to liddat. not trying to boast or anything, in fact nothing to boast about cos i understand nuts about what im doing. mann.. i need work to fulfil and satisfy me? okay i officially have no life.

work work work..
work so hard for what? not too sure also.
trying desperately to keep my scholarship?
hmm.. not really.. doesnt mean that much to me
to pull up my cap?
hmm.. not really.. for what? what diff does it make?
matter of principles?
errm... okay...
matt you are getting disillusioned, cannot!

i just wanna go running,
run and run and run and run and run and run non stop until i collapse and die.
haha havent ran for so long alr,
it jus might happen that i collapse and die.
i feel like bashing somebody up also,
anybody will do,
like tackle the fella and keep ramming my shoulder into his ribs.
angst sia.. angst..
or maybe i should go cycling deep in the night like i used to,
maybe i should do just that. dunno maybe.

ya know what i wish i could do?
i wish i could be a busker.
then i can roam about the streets all day entertaining ppl everywhere.
too bad i got no special skills to speak of,
unless they wanna see a person stone for the longest time,
like those silver painted guys along orc
eh i can do that pretty well leh, i swear.
but then again thats not very fun.
i also dunno what i want la.

must be the fucking nip tuck ost i ripped off from my home comp la. i keep looping it while doing work, make me all trancey and high, like i maciam smoke weed liddat dammit. No more! No more i say!

sigh
God please fill the void
otherwise the void will jus implode in me like a vaccuum!
i buay tahan alr

Even if the silence walks with me
No one really hears it