i've been trying very hard to define my faith lately, well in no small part due to the hooha and hoolabaloo thats happened. because when the red light was on, and the camera was rolling, i couldnt say a shit, i was as dumb as an ass. not that i wasnt true or anything, i jus couldnt put a finger to it. so i thought very hard about it, why did i freeze up and talk crap? have i been wrong all this while, have i been too slack?
then as i was searching for an answer, God answered me with joan osbourne, yes not don moen or hillsongs, but joan osbourne, joan osbourne's "one of us".
when i was younger, i used to think that this song was blasphemous, so much so that when i reached this track, i would skip it. but now, i would be so bold as to say that it vividly describes what i believe but couldnt articulate.
notice how she sings as if mockingly. but if ya listen carefully, i think she actually believes, she actually does. thats how it is with me i guess. still have no words of fancy or expressions to describe it proper, but i'll jus leave it at that.
it would be the gravest mistake to take me for being lukewarm though.
on other issues, so they actually gave me the allowance afterall..